Sometimes we get to a point in our lives, where we have to make a decision to either stand still, go backwards or move forward. It would seem likely that we would choose to go forward, but in reality we don’t always make that our first choice. Hopefully, going backwards is never the choice. However, it’s the standing still that might cause other problems to arise or get worse.
I’ve recently had to make some personal decisions in my life and I chose to move forward. This was not my first choice. I had stood still in a situation for a long time. I thought progress was being made but then I realized there had been little to no progress. I made myself believe I was moving forward even when the same issues and problems continued to exist. I was praying about it and I was still holding on. When I came to the realization there was no progress, I knew it was time to take some steps. I did not want to stay in that same place and I refused to go backwards. I needed to move forward.
The hardest part about moving forward is that sometimes we have to let go of things and people we have had in our lives for a long time. We allow ourselves to believe what we are going through is normal, when it’s really not. We allow ourselves to become comfortable in uncomfortable situations. We allow ourselves to accept less than what we deserve. We convince ourselves to hold on because of the love we have for that person and we fear moving on.
My first few steps were tough. I felt like I had cement in my shoes and I had to lift one foot up and put it down before I could think about moving the other foot. In taking these steps, I have had to make my situation transparent to family and friends who had no clue about what was going on in my personal life. I’ve had to deal with the questions, the surprised reactions, the silence, the sympathy and the gossip. I had to move from what seemed normal and comfortable onto a path I had not expected I would be taking. I am moving forward.
I take every day step by step. Some days are better than others. Some days I get through the day without crying and then there are days I ask God to stop the tears from flowing. Even with the tears, I am moving forward. I don’t have time to look back and wonder why for the rest of my life. I understand that I may not get answers to some of my own questions, but I do know I am moving forward.
I have been told I am a strong woman. It’s not that I am so strong, it’s because I have a God who has never left me or forsaken me. I have a God who strengthens me when I am weak and a loving God who wipes away all of my tears. I have a God who will fight my battles for me and who will not allow any weapon formed against me to prosper. I have a God who will supply my every need. I have a God who gives me peace and joy. I have a God who restores me even in my brokenness. I have a God who has ordered my steps. I am moving forward.
Dear Lord, I am praying for someone who does not know that it’s time to move forward. I am praying for the person who does not know how to take that first step. Lord, I ask You, in the name of Jesus, to give them the will to let go of past hurts, disappointments, unforgiveness, shame and self-pity. I pray they will no longer allow themselves to be accepting of the uncomfortable places they are in. I am praying for their strength and determination so they can move forward and receive the blessings You have in store for them. I am believing for them that every stronghold of guilt, abandonment, neglect, mistreatment, and depression will be broken off of their lives. I am believing You will restore their souls. I pray for their restoration of faith, hope, peace, self-confidence, and joy. Dear Lord, create in them a clean heart and lead them on the path of righteousness. I am praying this is the day, they surrender all to You and they move forward! In the powerful and mighty name of Jesus, I say Amen!