As I look in the mirror these days, I see the physical changes that have been taking place in my appearance over the years and especially in the past few years. I see the increasing number of gray hairs on my head and in my eyebrows. I see the additional weight and the changes to my skin. For me, aging gives a whole new meaning to moisturizing, making better food choices, resting and exercising. A few things I took for granted in my younger years have now become necessary priorities.
As I look beyond the reflection I see in the mirror, I see a woman who has had to press her way through some tough times. I see a woman who has had to muster up smiles when there was hardly any peace or joy within to make her smiles real. I see a woman who has fought back tears as she tightly held on to any hope she had left. I see a woman who has been betrayed and mistreated by some she loved all the while believing they loved her. I see a woman who was once an innocent little girl who has endured much over the years, but has held on because God gave her the strength to endure.
I know God has carried me through these years and I know He will continue to do so. These days I am spending more time growing in my relationship with God. I have more time to study His Word and more time to pray. I have more time to just be still in His presence. My time in His presence is what moves me to look beyond the reflection in the mirror. There is more of me to see and more of me to become just as there was more of me to see in other stages of my life. There was more of me to see when I was a teenager becoming a young adult. There was more of me to see as I became a wife and a mother. There was more of me to see from when I got my first job after college and then choosing to retire after 30 plus years with one company. There has always been more in my reflection, and now I am looking beyond the reflection wondering what is my “next”.
As I wait for further spiritual guidance, I am enjoying my quiet time with God. I enjoy having my cup of coffee with Him in the morning. I enjoy reading and studying His Word daily. I enjoy listening for His voice. I am looking beyond my now and peering into my “next”. I am looking beyond and looking deeper within myself. As I look deeper within myself, I am seeking Him more.
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for blessing me to see another day. Thank You for always caring for me and protecting me. Father, I praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made by You. Father, as I look beyond my reflection in the mirror I am blessed because You kept gladness in my heart. I am glad You have never left me or forsaken me. I love spending time in Your presence and sitting at the feet of Jesus. Please continue to bless me as I look deeper within myself and as I draw closer to You. It is in Jesus’ name, I say “amen”.
For You have been my Sovereign LORD, my confidence since my youth. From birth I have relied on You; You brought me from my mother’s womb. I will forever praise You. Psalms 71:6-7 (NIV)
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. I say to myself, “the LORD is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him.” Lamentations 3:22-24 (NIV)
As water reflects the face, so one’s life reflects the heart. Proverbs 27:19 NIV
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting, but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30 (NIV)
I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I keep my eyes always on the LORD. With Him at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Psalms 16:7-8 (NIV)
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I really enjoyed this entry. I think this is a season that speaks to many of us. Glad you put it into words.