Just a few months ago I was eagerly anticipating my youngest daughter’s graduation from high school. When that day and that moment arrived, my heart was filled with mixed emotions. I was a proud mother to see her stand before her graduating class and deliver the commencement address; but I also knew it was time to let her go. I kept asking God where did the time go? It seems like You just gave her to me and now. . .
And now, here we are already in September and she has completed 2 weeks in college. Where did the time go? I now have two in college and one beginning his Senior year in high school. I have watched my three children grow from babies into young adults and I can’t help but to marvel as to how the time has flown by.
It seems like it was just yesterday when I was taking them to daycare and kindergarten. I must admit the thought of my children not being home every night has been tough at times. Over the years I have gotten comfortable in knowing they were safe and secure in their rooms and close by if I needed to look in on them. Now, I’m watching my son go out in the evenings to hang out with his friends knowing that within less than a year he will also be on his way to college. There is so much going on in the world these days, that it’s only natural you want to protect your loved ones at all times, especially your children. You want to keep them close by as if nothing could happen to them at home, school, church or in places we call familiar.
The Sunday afternoon I had to leave Cecily at a college 4 hours from home, I had my emotions in check (or at least I thought I did!) I was so busy running around trying to make sure she had everything she needed before we left, that I did not have much time to think about getting emotional. Just two years before I had taken her sister to school and figured I know how this works now; I can handle it! I’m a big girl! I’ve got this all under control!
Well, I’m sure you can guess what happened. As soon as it came time to give our hugs goodbye, I realized this was it. This was the moment of letting go! Where did the 18 years go? When I saw Cecily hugging her brother and sister goodbye, the tears just started to flow. I could not stop them! As I hugged her and the tears continued to flow, I said another prayer over my child and her new journey in life. I gave thanks to the Lord for blessing me with her. I told Him that I was trusting Him even more to keep watch over her.
You see, I needed this reassurance for me more so than I needed it for Cecily. For the past 18 years I’ve known this day would come. I’ve known that my assignment was to raise Cecily as best I could and to encourage her to have her own relationship with God. He tells us in Isaiah 55 (NIV)
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
Cecily Elise Matthews, although I am marveling at how fast the time has flown by, I know you are in God’s hands and you will continue to flourish. He has a greater purpose and plan for you and it will be fulfilled. Because of this, I am ok with the letting go and allowing you to grow and prosper according to His divine will. You are a blessing to me and I am blessed because you call me mommy!
The link below is a post I had the opportunity to write when my oldest daughter graduated from high school 2 years ago. The words “Take Courage” still resonate within me today. Thanks, to my sister Change Agents, Renee and Roslyn! Love you both!