You have searched me, LORD, and you know me. Psalm 139:1
Little did I know how it would feel to have a broken heart; how it would feel to have a friend betray me; or how it would feel not to find my prince charming the first time I thought I was in love! When I was this little girl, there was a sweet innocence in not knowing what I would face in the years to come.
When I was this little girl, I could not have imagined the hurts and disappointments I would experience in this journey called life. I could not have known of the brokenness I would experience, when I was touched inappropriately. I could not have known that because I would need to wear glasses that some would make fun of me and diminish my self-esteem. When I was this little girl, I could not have known that one of my closest friends would believe a lie told by her boyfriend. How could I know this would end our relationship for good even when she realized she had been lied to? How could I have known of the verbal and mental abuse I would endure in my first marriage?
When I was this little girl, how could I have known that the man my mother said was my father, would never return to see me? How could I have known my mother would deliberately try to keep me from knowing anything about this man? How could I know she would pass away when I was 49 years old and take all she knew about him to her grave?
When I was this little girl, my grandmother told me about a man named Jesus! My grandmother taught me to pray at an early age. When I would get ready for bed each night, she would have me repeat the words to the Lord’s prayer after she said each line. I had so much love and respect for my grandmother, that I did not even question the existence of Jesus. I believed because my grandmother believed.
Now that I am no longer this little girl, I have come to know Jesus on my own. I appreciate what my grandmother shared with me, but I had to get to know Him for myself. I had to experience some brokenness so that I would talk to Him every day. I had to go through this journey called life, so that I would know to give Him praise even before I got my breakthrough. I know He has been my protector. I know He has heard me crying and wiped away all of my tears. I know my strength comes from Him.
The LORD’S Prayer
My Father, who art in heaven, I honor your name! Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven! Give me this day my daily bread. And forgive me my debts, as I forgive my debtors. Please lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from evil. For thine is the kingdom, and the power and the glory, for ever. Amen! (Matthew 6:9-13)
When I was this little girl, He knew I would be broken only to 2B restored! He is my Father and He calls me daughter.